LividThor

So I’ve been scowering on tumblr and I come across this blog about a lesbian who is in a relationship with a guy. I’ve been following her for a while because what she posts up is interesting to me and yadda’, I digress.. But she repeadily gets asked this question “You’re a lesbian, Why are you dating a guy?” And various other types of the same question. I sat there and pondered for a while because normally I don’t send messages to people because my self-esteme is shite and well I never know what to say.. But I said “fuck it” and I sent her a couple of messages, basically to show everyone

I believe it is time for me to actually now start talking about this, and what has been happening for the past couple of weeks/months even and my doings. From what has been happening for the past year since leaving school I've been been in college doing a Security studies. Honestly has been one hell of experience, I mean I even got work experience out of it even with my long hair (shocked me as well). But anyhow the year ended recently well on the 4th of may which was fun, we had our last exam that day which was Security studies believe it or not. We had only one week of exams which is great because I got to see everyone else flail about spo

Everything that you've told me that has happened in the past three days… Last night being the worst of it. It was really hard for me… it was killing me, hurting me in many ways. Like 1001 knives ripping into my heart and tearing in all kinds of directions. As you say, you can never do anything to make up for it. That, I don't know… That is something you need to figure out yourself. Right now… all my defences are up… I am now at my most vulnerable state where even you, I can fall back into my old ways. Being depressed, not giving a damn when I walk out in traffic or even walk… being emotional-less. Right now, as